Building up a belief system

Because of recent developments and disappointments, I have taken on the task of finding out what I believe in (Don't worry, I'm not going to ramble about my beliefs here or now).

I am also doing some fall cleaning. This means breaking ties with people who have influenced me negatively, acquaintances I don't know or care to know, and jerks.

Rant # 1  Long-term relationships.

OK, apparently there's no such thing as a serious relationship because after almost two years of dating this DUDE, we'll call him D, he's already found a new girlfriend in two months. What the Fuck. Really? I mean, I have no logical reason to be upset. I left him; however, I still loved him. I still love him. I only left him because I didn't want to go to grad school in Kansas, and he left me no other choice. I also thought, and still think, that going to grad school is a journey one needs to take on his or her own. He got his year of freedom after graduation (working at Walmart), yet still expected me to sacrifice mine and everything for him- for that matter.

I should be happy he's found someone that can give him everything I couldn't, but the whole thing is insensitive and irritating. Why? I don't fucking know.

Rant # 2 Never tell just anyone about who you are


Naturally, when you get to know someone you get attached to them. A person becomes human when you learn about their upbringing, their hobbies, aspirations, etc. This is not information you can give to just anyone. Save it for people who matter (and by matter I mean care). When you just freely volunteer information, you run the risk of becoming dull, not meeting someone's expectation, or feeling stupid.

of course, I have not personally experienced this.

Wow, those are really short rants. I'm glad I can be efficient for all those people that read my blog.

ha.