Three days later, and I still appreciate a good dichotomy.

I know it's annoying to all those people who knew me as Rachel to suddenly start calling me Rae, but some people won't even try. It's the like the effort personally insults them. Ridiculous.

I kind of understand the hostility to go along with it. There are so many young people changing their names to something more non-descript or gender neutral., Then there are those who change their gender AND their name follows (it sorta has to) It's almost a fad. People are trying so hard to be cool that it's not cool anymore. It makes becoming Rae almost embarrassing. I don't know why I didn't do this years ago. I've always had a genuine hatred for the biblical-ness and common-ness of my name. Sorry grandma.

I'm looking forward to moving to Cincinnati tomorrow. I like the anonymity of a bigger city. I like starting over from nothing. I like leaving off previous friendships, favorite restaurants, and careers while they're still at their peaks. Once everything has gone sour, it's much harder to leave. Why is that? Maybe because after things have gone downhill, there's no returning or making amends.



Things I am looking forward to
pumpkins
orange tree tunnels
frat boy/sorostitute bars
Hip Hop/RB radio stations
real industrial wastelands
the lack of tourists
black people/indians/Mexicans
Having a bike to ride and a place to ride it to
Michael manfroni
Suzanne Webster (and the birth of her Gineau Pig babies)
MidPoint Music Fest
Jews
Family
Autumn busking
A real paying job with benefits
Lots (and I mean lots) of gay boys
and most importantly, DANCE CLUBS!